My name is Marianna, formerly known as CoffeeAunt. You might remember me if you’ve been on this forum at least since the beginning of February.
Why did I disappear?
During the first or second week of February, I got sick with an intestinal infection. It lasted about a week, but it left me with a lot of anxiety and feelings of depression and melancholy. To make matters worse, I’ve been living alone since October 2020, and working from home.
I had to figure out what was making me feel so down. I didn’t even feel like listening to music, writing stories, or coming on the forum. I wanted to notify the staff that I needed a break, but just thinking about entering and seeing a bunch of notifications and my staff duties made me feel even more anxious.
Why did I create a new account?
Like I mentioned, I stopped listening to music for a month. Finally, some time during the beginning of March, I found out that Post Malone had released a new song called Only Wanna Be With You, which is a remake of a 90s song. That was the first song I listened to since I started feeling bad, and it got me back into listening to music.
So, once I started contemplating returning to the forum (since last week), I didn’t want to come back with my old username and see thousands of notifications upon entering. I needed a fresh start.
That’s basically my story. I’ve been feeling much better since March. I had a great birthday, I began hanging out with the neighbors more, and I’ve gotten back into writing and listening to music.